Time

Time… lost useless time. For all that I have spent more shall I pass tomorrow. Wasting away in thoughts and hopes. Learning and losing time. In the time it takes to shed a tear I could be giving a kiss a lover. Everything passes and ends. It is the fate of time. The enemy of our life… the entity that means nothing remains the same. The maker of change for it takes time to build or destroy anything… even my heart. For all the time you would spend to hurt me… it makes me sad anyone would delight in this but I know as they do this their disturbed mind leads them to their own robbery they rob their selves of time. Precious time. When I have my bliss; despite all the pain they would wish upon me for I know that wish takes time to open their evil minds and utter the thought of my desecration. For their own villainy has took from them. The time I spend idly by to write this is gone lost forever with a memory but unlike most worthless meanings this does… for it can be eternal as long as one still reads these words it is eternal and so am I. Because of this I exist in their reality… and the ones that hurt me also do but upon scorn’s throne. We only live for one second then it has passed on to the next second but it is the present as the last was… so this one repetitive second is infinity… then you take the natural law… the law that says we must one day pass to heaven or hell for what we weave on earth is the garment of our soul. And this time wasted is that very garment no matter who you ask everything is a waste in someone’s eyes. For all the games they and you play… time is what shall have the final move. Welcome to the board of life and I deal you the deck… roll the dice for the next tale of fate has come. Now time has left everything around changed in the time you spent to again rip my heart out, time has changed; you lost that, and not a care do I give for you wish hurt upon me. I have a heavy heart without you or another placing more weight upon it. Stab and tear, dig your claws in deep pull and twist, chew and bite rap and mutilate my heart if you dare… all that you give me is pain. In your own rage and insecurity you do this for what purpose? Does my pain mean that much to you? Have you even looked deep into my eyes and see my true pain? You know little of me only what I want… for as does everyone. My life is mystery, a constant enigma; I am a ghost only revealing parts of myself to you. For I know how easy it is to rip my own heart out… I do it enough on my own with out your unwanted help. The more you molest my heart the more my love grows dormant and I have enough time to find my true love, my missing mother, my true friends. Take what you will from me, beat me, leave me, hurt me, scare me, place more scars upon my fractured body… whip me with the chains of emotions… for they tear into my emotional shell as it is… make more pain for me. Notice not time has passed you look to see the clock… turn around and I am gone. You hurt me to much, you drove my heart insane now it is in pain… I leave to find another to do the same. Until I find the one. The one all this time I have spent searching for. Nothing more then time. Noting less then a day. Shy from infinity, possessive of tomorrow for this time does, will, and has passed. And so have I to the next phase… of time.