Its funny how things work out.

This one i feel i need to explain some... this is when a friend of mine was with a girl that wanted me very bad... i kept saying no and he was with her... later on we found something out... kinda good i wasnt with her. he killed himself tho she gave him aids.

Its funny how things work out and how mysterious life and someone you thought you knew turns out. I am sorry my friend. I never realized. I did not know. I guess I should have… but I was blind. I never thought I could have such an influence on anyone’s life or thoughts. But you never should have chosen me. I am not great for God like as you put it. Yes I was popular… and I know I did what I thought was right. I am my own person and as I knew you, you were also. I never knew you wanted to be me… I guess that is why you did that… to have something I could have. I’m sorry for what happened. I’m sorry because I held my moral so tight that it was you who got aids and not me. I never wanted this to happen to anyone I care about… and I did not know. I guess I should have realized… but you never should have taken your own life. I know the pain was great… for I have the guilt of your death. For it is me you blame. I am forever have your scorn but I hold you as I do everyone in my heart. I am sorry.