Recuring collective dreams

Recuring collective dreams… realizing accumulative thoughts. All is mist… wondering in the clouds of confussion. Still searching my soul for the answer… I can not forget. When I think im free… again the pain returns for I shall never be free of it. For ever right I have done a wrong does live… and more still. I shall never be happy… when I fear it. I fear love, expection. I am not a good person.